Living Life-Healing Grief

Letting Go Is Hard To Do

2010-08-21T17:45:00.000-07:00

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You can't leave a place you've never been. If you don't allow yourself to visit and even waller in your sadness and grief you won't be able to heal and move on. Relationships are the cradle of pleasure and pain. It's part of the human condition. Easy to enter and hard to leave. Strageties for healing include emotional release like crying and physical release like exercise help. Meditation and calming your mind using relaxation is also useful. Getting into a nature setting helps to reset your inner tranquility and settle emotions run wild. It's important to heal the old wounds before you start over, but don't let the old ones become scars that cannot be penetrated by starting over. Trust and love yourself. Only then can you open yourself to love another.

My Grief

2009-10-16T08:44:00.000-07:00

People have asked my why I am interested in healing grief. I know why. I've had several losses both by death, divorce and separation. The emotional pain that followed was a mystery. In fact, I just felt terrible, sad, depressed, helpless, hopeless, anger, relief and so many confusing emotions.

When I was 23 years old my father killed himself, I had two miscarriages, my baby daughter...Mary Margaret died just two days after her early birth. I lost two sisters, and my youngest brother committed suicide at 45 years old, the same age that my father was when he died. My mother suffered from emphema for several years before her death in 1981, and I got divorced in 1971.

No one consoled me or explained that I wouldn't feel devastated forever. I was expected to go back to work and get on with my life, crying and even talking about my pain wasn't an option. No one knew what to say to me or do to ease my suffering, neither did I. So I just stuffed it inside.

It took me 15 years to accept and deal with my father's death. It was so confusing and painful that I couldn't get close to it. I felt that I had so many uncried tears, that if I ever started to cry I would never stop, just become a puddle on the floor. Gone! As the losses piled up I began to have anxiety attacks and felt depressed.

The grief , confusion and overwhelming emotions after my divorce sent me over the edge. My stress level was over the top. I had severe anxiety and panic attacks. Finally a friend took me to a therapist. When I told him my story he declared that I was going to be okay. The situatuion I was facing was so personally distrubing that my reaction was not unusual. That helped me to be open to beginning to heal.

It wasn't easy and it was a long process. Healing is a process. There is no right or wrong way to do it. We are all unique in our emotional lives, the relationship is important, the timing and circumstances of the loss is another factor. My journey was often painful. I had to look into the past and relive events and relationships that I thought I had buried. Buried but not healed. There were old wounds just festering below the surface, ready to break open to hurt me at the next stress overload or loss. I had to heal each one separately.

As I healed myself I finally realized that I was not unique and many other people were in the same boat. When I began private practice I could relate to unresolved grief and was able to consol those in grief and help them to realize that feeling are fluid and change. Facing the pain, letting it in, talking about it, crying and using other personal ways to heal are so important.

There is like after grief and loss. The unexpected benefit is the compassion you will feel for others who are grieving.

2009-10-08T18:26:00.001-07:00

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2009-10-08T18:21:00.001-07:00

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Relationships and Grief in The Death of A Loved One

2009-10-07T07:25:00.000-07:00

Saying Goodbye

2009-10-03T07:24:00.000-07:00

This is hard for me. I tend to want to hold on. I like to keep old friends, relatives and loved ones close. Sometimes we don't get a chance to say good-bye like when someone we love dies especailly if the death is sudden and unexpected. This can be a great source of pain, dreams and re-living of the last encounter with that person over-and over. It is particularily painful if the last contact was in anger or ended without resolution. My mother often told me to never go to bed angry or leave without saying I LOVE YOU. But when this doesn't happen it complicated the grieving process.

Saying goodbye after the fact is harder but can be done. The most effective way is by writing a letter and saying now what you would have liked to say then. It is more powerful if you read the letter out loud to another person you trust. A therapist is best because she/he can help you work through any remaining unresolved grief.

There are other effective rituals, for saying goodbye like releasing a helium filled baloon to the sky. You can put a message inside or tie something to the string. It is powerful for a family to do this together. Going to the grave site or where the ashes are held or released and bringing flowers. or even having a picnic can be healing.

Be creative. I worked with a ten-year-old boy whose parents were divorced and his father was killed in an automobile crash. He was depressed, doing badly in school, and having nightmares. He felt abandoned and hurt because he didn't get a chance to say goodbye. I suggested he make a cross for his fathers grave. His step-father helped him, he did it with great love and even painted it white. When it was ready, and he was ready we took it to the cemetery his mother and step -father joined us. He put it on his fathers grave, said goodbye and we had lemonade and cookies to celebrate his love for and release of his father.

More information in my book Letting Go With Love: The Grieving Process www.lamariposapress.com

The sad and tragic disappearance of a loved one into Altzheimers

2009-10-02T20:47:00.000-07:00

I got a lovely card from a friend today and want to share it with you. Her experience is sadly common for many families.
Carol wrote :
You made my birthday most enjoyable. I cared for my husband for 10 years as he slowly slid into Alzheimers disease and the last two were so difficult I try not to recall them. I was up night and day but I wouldn't part with him until I almost died myself--so the last two months he was in a wonderful care center. I never have any regrets or doubts of my devotion to him and your book is so correct saying that at the end the care giver must face years of exhaustion and truly needs comforting and support from family. I found myself terribly alone and my children too absorbed in their own lives to help or care or realize how much I needed and loved them. Thank you for your loving gift. Carol

See the Chapter on Caregiving in Letting Go With Love: The Grieving Process at www.lamariposapress,com

Just beginning ...again!

2009-10-02T15:45:00.000-07:00

Living Life-Healing Grief , this is a BIG topic. I'm rejuvenated by the current activity in my life. I'm almost ready to finish a Musical Comedy and have BIG dreams of getting it produced on Broadway... the Broadway in Manhattan. It's titled IN THE YEAR 2323 and is about life in 2055 and what it could be like if we don't get our global act together and deal with some of the issues that could bring our big technical brains to a disastrous extinction. I know that sounds grim but it has some funny, entertaining and redeeming parts.

After a tedious three year search I've found the perfect music composer, he lives in Portland Oregon and I live in Tucson, Arizona. So we'll see how we can get the music done long distance.

I'm also rewriting a novel about the lives of my great grand parents and their eight children. I wrote this book during a wonderful six month trip to France in 2006, but it straggled the genre fence posts of fiction and non-fiction and no agent would touch it with a ten foot pole so in the drawer it went for a few years. But now I'm co-rewriting it with a talented person who previously edited my other books and knows a lot about grammar, tenses and when to use who and when to use whom. I am having fun making up stuff to make the book more interesting. Writing dialogue. Things I have no way of knowing, like about their sex lives. We are on Chapter 4. I'll keep you posted on progress.

Finally, I'm working with a new web master who "gets" this new way to get in touch with people, so here's my first attempt. We are going to move on to targeting niches, doing video pieces for U-tube, and maybe doing grief consultations or forums. If you have any thoughts or ideas let me know.

I've written a useful book on healing grief, and I've had plenty of grief in my own life. The book is called Letting Go With Love: The Grieving Process. I'm considered an expert in the area from both a professional and personal perspective. You can check out my books at my website http://www.lamariposapress.com/

I don't know if it is okay to toot my own horn in a blog, so if you think it isn't let me know.
You can also let me know if it is okay.
See you later.